Wednesday, November 26, 2008

A little???





and you've just told me that ; " A little "....
After Yesterday night , i am still fighting for us...
The war between my head and my heart is getting bigger...
My heart is giving a very brave fight...
I just wanna think about you...Just You...Only You...
Missing you...and in return....
A little...
Are you kidding me ? i thought so, too but you confirmed that it was not a joke or a tease...
and what do i do now?
You are taking away all the weapons of my heart....

The Alley...Our Journey...to the unknown..to the Discovery..the dark Alley...started to get illuminated...
but not a type of light that takes us to peace...A type of light, we both wouldn't like.....
Why....
It s as you say...it should be as you say..so simple....

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Beni Al(din)...

Her gecen gun seninle beraber...kendimi daha da baglanmis hissediyorum...
Garip bir duygu...Sanki hayatimin sonuna kadar seni yanimda hissetmeyi isteyecek gibiyim...
Gerci hayat bu, hic belli olmaz...hele hele benim gibi dengesiz , ne istedigini bilmeyen bir mahlukatsan...
Sana diyecegim sudur guzel kiz ; seni gercekten seviyorum ve ayaklarim yere basmiyor su an....
Gola oldun once...simdi de chagall da bulduk kendimizi...
sirada ne var ?
4 nikah bir cenaze mi ?

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

The 13th Moon in my life...is You....


There is some kiss we want with our whole lives,the touch of Spirit on the body.
Sea water begs the pearl to break its shell.
And the lily, how passionately it needs some wild Darling!
At night, I open the window and ask the moon to comeand press its face into mine.Breathe into me.
Close the language-door,and open the love-window.
The moon won't use the door,only the window.

Happy


"Love each other and kiss each other, you'll be having wonderful moments in life and tell Burak to learn Polish so that we can talk when he comes to visit"
How can such a simple and short sentence can make a person THIS happy ???
Thank you...

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Warriors of the Rainbow....


When the earth is ravaged and the animals are dying, a new tribe of people shall come unto the earth from many colors, classes, creeds, and who by their actions and deeds shall make the earth green again.
They will be known as the Warriors of the Rainbow

Law of Threefold Return



“ Do as ye will, as long as ye harm none ”


and i wanna believe you'll will not hurt me anymore...

You know what i would want most in this world...more than anything...I want you to hold my hand....just hold my hand and look into my eyes, to my soul, in an Esbat...
I think, it's one of the steps you have to take, to take us to immortal love...

Would you be my Selene ?

Come again, please, come again.....

"Come again, please, come again,Whoever you are.
Religious, infidel, heretic or pagan.
Even if you promised a hundred times
And a hundred times you broke your promise,
This door is not the door of hopelessness and frustration.
This door is open for everybody.
Come, come as you are."



http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=S45OJnQp6mI&feature=related

Friday, November 14, 2008

The way of the Sword

Infinite Love is the Only Truth.
Everything Else is Illusion...

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Carpe....


Go on, lean in. Listen, you hear it? --- Carpe (he whispers) --- hear it? --- (he whispers) Carpe, carpe diem, seize the day boys, make your lives extraordinary!"

i want to make every day of yours extraordinary.....that i wanna paint your days with joy, laugh , peace , happiness and purple....That's truly what i want....To be a part of your play...stay there...till hearing such claps that make the ears deaf...but i can not perform in the way i want, when i can not concantrate...

And you are SO not helping me to concantrate...

Ayni Nakarat....

ee ne yazayim simdi ?
Gene bir cuval inciri berbat ettin, afferin sana...
Hani biraz rahatliyalim, relax olalim , buldugun Cuba seyahatinin keyfini cikaralim, Istanbul a gitmemenin heyecaninda olalim...yok...
Sen daha gecmisini beraberinde getir....
Sen daha baskalarini uzmemek icin dusuncesiz hareketlerine devam et...
Ben burada bascavusun essegiyim cunku...zicip sivadiktan sonra istedigin kadar seni seviyorum de, heyecanliyim de...hadi leyyyn oradan derim ben de...

Ne yapacagiz peki simdi ???

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Gemiler...


Sen gecerken sahilden sessizce,
Gemiler kalkar yuregimden gizlice

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Just a remark from the w/e


It was one of the nights when we had lost the meaning of time. We drag ourselves into the bed. I was tired but couldn't sleep. Because you were there,next to me, with all your beauty...so watchable..adorable...Seeing you like that...I didn t wanna close my eyes...just wanted to see you, watch you as much as possible..
I tell you that you’re beautiful....You make me feel , like i am young again as you run your fingers through my hair.
Every time i said , every single time ; i meant it ....when I said that you were beautiful. My heart beat is steady and calm when you speak....my heart beat doubles when you just look into my eyes...right into my soul...and I wonder if yours is the same.
And all those lights from the moon, from the street lights go inside through your window , add an extra glow to your face that I have not yet seen before, and it is at that moment I notice your smile. The smile ladies and gentelmen...The most gorgeous smile that I have ever seen. The most gorgeous smile that has ever been seen by anyone. At that moment I know nobody in your life had not seen what I had seen. No one has not thought what I have thought, has not felt what I had felt.Because, at that very second, I found out that i had discovered incomparable beauty.
I'd discovered you...

The Will to Act...


You have learned to bury your guilt with anger.
I will teach you to confront it, and to face the truth.
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=zqrhzwu766E

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Out of System ???????

The truth is darling ;
You've broken my heart and you knew that,
but now here's the thing ;
The love that you gave me is worse than a drug,
and to get more,
I'd do anything....
Yet it hurts...
Still....

Friday, November 7, 2008

Something Not About "Us"

~To Will~
The Will of an experienced magickal practitioner should be capable of directing their life to their satisfaction and likewise for their higher benefit and that of evolution. In its greater form, the Will should be capable, in rare circumstances, of directing the course of events beyond themselves, such as the environmental destruction (man-made) or in cases of threat, either personal or planetary. In all cases the energy raised is for defence rather than attack.No magickal tool of a material nature can be charged without the power of the disciplined Will. No circle can be cast, neither can it defend the individual. No elements can be invoked and the Gods, most definitely, remain only the figment of myth.This list is seemingly endless. Therefore, although initiation may be considered acceptable prior to the development within this work, it is your personal and imperative responsibility to attend to the discipline of your own Will an to consider it as foremost in your self-training.
~To Know~
Apart from the nature of things that interest you generally, it is important that you accumulate as much knowledge of the diverse nature concerning the occult path as you can, as there is power in knowledge for its own sake. All manner of related subjects can only assist you in your work - things of an anthropological, religious, philosophic nature, works by other occultists, material pertinent to affirm what you learn, ie astrology, numerology, tarot, herbalism and the healing arts in general, mythology, history, etc.With all the information that you receive it is important that you take time to put the qualities of your own mind into action to enable you to ascertain the difference between what is purely hearsay on the part of the authors concerned. All things are to be analysed and should lead to a balanced viewpoint based on your own judgement.No knowledge is ever wasted and it is necessary to know enough to trust your own findings. Ignorance is never bless, and all material viewed can only extend your capabilities of Mind. The material you employ that directly affects your magick is to be learnt so that natural flow occurs which allows other factors of a natural kind to enter into your work.
~To Dare~
Assuming you have done your work with self-training, and begun disciplining of the Will, you will now be in a position to experiment with what you have learned. You may find it beneficial to have all the information at your disposal before you take on the challenge of daring.Having decided to take up a magickal path, you are now to centre your skills on the use of ritual and seek to serve by way of experimenting with the forces around you. Take heed to interfere in no areas that does not personally concern you and where all acts of spellcraft are concerned, do not exceed your own ability - to do so would doom your work to failure and waste power of an astral nature. Say nothing to anyone of your experiment, as that also would doom it to fail.
~To Keep Silent~
In all things this is a very important and necessary function. Unless you have absolute faith in the person with whom you wish to discuss your path, then say nothing. Personal experience has taught that unless your 'cup is full' you will only deplete what you wish to store by tossing it around, and always remember the world is full of scared, bigoted people.You should treat your Book of Shadows/grimoire as sacred and not sharing the material with anyone unless they are prepared to follow the same path. After all you are working with the Gods and they will not be profaned.Remember - never boast, never threaten. Acts of spellcraft are a thankless business due to the very fact that if you discuss them with others they do not come to pass as they are reduced to the boundaries of the mundane. If you tell of them after they have worked few will believe you in this sceptical world anyway. The times you will have acknowledgment of your undertaking will be if you come to find like-minded people but be careful and discerning as there are those who would suck you dry of all you have learned and then leave for the gratification of their own power. There are many who will seek power for the sake of power itself, and they are those who endanger the Goddess and the gifts she bestows.Therefore, speak not of what you know at all until you become that which you seek to serve.

Putting in a different way


She said ;

It's private.........

Because everything that i shared so far, weren't private....You can find'em in T folder..

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Still Undone.......


"When it's love you give ,

then it's love you live"

And she says she is in love with herself.....


Togetherness is the feeling of being close to another person emotionally and physically. It is an emotion which cannot be definited outside of its current sociological meaning, and the reality of such a term is not "knowledge."
It is well symbolized by the gesture of holding both hands up, slightly cupped with palms facing each other, and moving them together to create a circle.
The other symbol is also when two arms hold each other at the wrist.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Only You..Once again...


It's only you,
Who can tell me apart,
And it's only you,
Who can turn my wooden heart...

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

.....


I had wanted to do that last night...
:((
Whispering you...touching myself...hearing touching yourself...on the phone...till both of us........
I wish you'd feel....

and i am not kidding.....


She is aggressive...to me...


I still haven't figured out the reason why of your aggressive behaviours.....
It is not " being sensitive" ....
mmm don't know...

Strength and Honour



The definition of being a Turk as "any individual whatever his faith who speaks Turkish, grows up with Turkish culture and adopts the Turkish ideal is a Turk."

The Turks had been considered as highly-qualified and superior people by the foreigners and their capacities, beauties and bravery were always praised.

The Wolf symbolizes honour and is also considered the father of most Turkic peoples. Asena (Ashina Tuwu) is the wolf mother of Tumen Il-Qagan, the first Khan of the Göktürks.

In the Bible, Togarmah, son of Gomer, was ancestor of the Turkic-speaking peoples. His sons Ujur (Uyghur: Mongol-Turks), Tauris, Avar, Uauz (Oghuz Turks), Bizal, Tarna, Khazar, Janur, Bulgar, and Sawir (Sabir, a Turkic people, probably of Hunnic origin) are the mythical founders of tribes that once lived around the Black and Caspian Seas.
We have never surrounded..Not even one single war...
We died till to the last man...
We live with honour...
and die with honour.....

Monday, November 3, 2008

Simple




Do you know that sometimes sweet ryhme comes into my head....
In that moment you hold me, touch me and love me
and we dream of what we can be
Simple Dreams, Simple Whisperings....
Pure..Naive...Simple it is...

She's comin'...again...i can get used to that...


I think i am gonna see her in a couple of hours....
And that's how i feel right now

It has started.....



Close your eyes...Fasten your seat bell...have a sip from your water...and forget about everything that you used to think they were beautiful....
Becuase as is today , Your journey starts....Your discovery...
I opened the Pandora's box....All you have to do is go with the flow....just let yourself go...

Eveything you have experienced with me so far, was just the "ramp-up"...
and now....

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Said a friend of mine....

I saw the email today....from a friend who knows me the best....Maybe there were at least 15-20 pick-up lines ..but just one ;

..."Distance makes the heart grow fonder"....

Thank you dude...Thank you....

Would you ever understand ????

I guess the picture tells a lot...isn't it ?
Actually there r a lot to speak...a lot to discuss...a few to accept...a lot to move on...
It's simple..but also very complicated and painfull....

Goodnight Moon...


The other night ,
i couldn t sleep....
i went out to the balcony....with the great silence covering the road...the lake.... Your Lake..
i raised up my head to the sky...
i saw the moon...
We had a "moment"....we looked into our eyes...
He saw my tears...
He asked me ;

"If she makes you cry, why don't you just go.... "
Maybe he was right...maybe he is...
and then i asked to him ;
"Would you ever leave your sky ? "

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LRqUONe_aAI