Life

Life is very strange my friend.....
Like a human..A female one maybe...Sometimes she's so Lovable...Sometimes she's such a bich...Sometimes she betrays you...sometimes she's the most trustable person ever...
You dream about a girl...That's why we call " her " as the girl of my dreams...And most of the time, what you think in your head, becomes true..and you meet with this girl...eventually..maybe not in this life format, but one day, you do meet her..

Life is like that too...What you think comes true....it just happens...But i still strongly believe in external factors, that may effect things..I am not saying those factors do change things, but they may effect. Then it s totally up to you, how you can cope with those...Those external factors may also open new opportunites...positive or negative ones...You'd never know...Because it's just life...Totally unpredictable...Like a girl...

The thing is, i am tired my friend...i used to battle, cope with everything...But it's just too much....yes, i want to happy...and that's what it is in my head..all the time...i work for it..i try for it....and everytime i feel things are on track, bammm, she betrays me again...
My family always supported me...till the end....and i know they gonna continue supporting me..till the end...I have a lot of friends...but just a few of them, i can trust..till the end...and all those years, i was missing something..someone...a female person in my female life...For the very first time, i do believe there is this person...Beautiful, Smart , Happy and understands me..Listens to me...learns things from me...shares with me...loves me...

I always say ; There's nothing certain in life...and nothing is forever( expect diamonds)
I still say ; There's nothing certain in life...and nothing is forever..but in addition to this, again for the very first time i know what i want...i just wanna be with her...It ain't matter where, how, under what circumcitances...

And once again, so called Life, the slut and the love of my presence, i will be in your path...whether you treat me good or bad...i will try to be happy..once again...and i'll find a way...once again...but this time, i am not alone...

Why vs Why Not

You see things; and you say, 'Why?' But I dream things that never were; and I say, "Why not?"

George Bernard Shaw.

The Proffessor's Daughter

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5YXVMCHG-Nk

I always believed in some certain things...

Believed in the energy...

Believed in Goodness

Believed in Life..Togetherness...I believed in Happiness...

Then i believed in YOU...i continously believed in you, no matter what happened...

When i was planing to tell you, i started to feel that i can be with you till the end, no matter what, where ever we are...You'd told me that you would never come with me to Turkey...How much it hurt...But...

Still believed in you...

For the first time in my life, i can tell that i feel in such a way that i belong to someone....

We had hard times..Maybe we'll have even harder times..But i strongly started believing as long as we have eachother, we gonna get through all the obstacles...

Change...is good...

And i think...some other things gonna change too....

Soon...

Not just my job....Also my status....Our's....

AND DO NOT QUESTION MY UNDERSTANDING OF ROMANTISM...

You know, what i am capable of....

You gonna have that....the circle thing...in the very best moment...

As your Father says ; IN

The ONE..

She can make me laugh like that...

And today ;

She proved that she'll be with me...She'll support me..She'll love me whatever happens...

I have no more questions...

She is the ONE...

And i wanna go with her,Only with her, till the end...

My Home, My job, My Heart, My Soul...IS NEXT TO YOU...

She's opened the window.....

I was in a dark room...Before you my love...

I was living in my lonely world..which i called, my kingdom...I thougth i was happy there...Before you my beauty...

I had my strong defence walls protecting my heart...from getting hurt..Before you my young woman..

I didn't wanna open my windows to anybody...Before you my "Smile"..

Weird = Special

It is weird....
One Polish, coming from a Catholic family...
One Turkish, coming from a totally different culture...
Totally two different aspects, two different expectations from life....
And Different experiences....
They both see the actual life from a different point of view...Sometimes they agree, Sometimes not..
They talk..They discuss..They fight....They cry...They make love...They create "the moment"...They are happy..sometimes unhappy...
These are normal things like the normal people do....
What enables them special is they understand their "weird characters" and accept and respect those sides of themselves....
That is why ; She is gonna be the one for him ; That is why He is gonna be the one for her...
That is why, despite everything they have been through , they are still together ...

All they need is , to build up real togetherness on top of this "Special" emotions that make them special, where in the meanwhile, it's seen as "weird" from other people...

They are just too very special weird souls, that love eachother....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VWuOh7a6ANQ

The Promise of a Witch

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=awxnfagxdxQ

I hear your voice

I touch your hair

I see the traces

Everywhere

This house of ours

We used to share

My dream has turned

To nightmare

I sleep no more

I dream no more
There's nothing here

To wake up for

I talk no more

I sing no more

Don't function like

I did before

Because she doesn't live here anymore

She hardly calls at all

Now when she's gone I find myself lost

Staring at the wall

I drink again

I smoke again

There's no one here

To call my friend

I swear again

I'm mad again

So troubled since

I don't know when

Because she doesn't live here anymore

She hardly calls at all

Now when she's gone I find myself lost

Staring at the wall

She doesn't live here anymore

She hardly calls at all

Since she's been gone there's nobody here

To catch me when I fall

Sending out an S.O.S

She's not "there" anymore.........

Love is a SHIELD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVhPUpG82sU

Love is a shield,

To hide behind,

Love is a field

To grow inside,

And when I sometimes close my eyes

My mind starts spinning round.

Love is a babyIn a mother's arms,

Love is your breath

Which makes me warm,

And when I sometimes close my eyes,
My mind starts spinning round.

There is a feeling

That flows through me,

When you are near

You make it real

And we could live for this ideal.
And all the pictures we run through,
Seem to be perfect,
Seem to be true.

But nothing is quite forever,

Especially staying together.

I don't care now

What comes along,

What counts is us,

No matter what will be,

Just this naivety.

The changing words we're taking in,

Seem to be perfect,

Seem to win.

But nothing is quite forever,

Especially staying together

The roots of us is...

Despite everything ;
It seems "Pure innocent Love" is about to win....

Loving you...

What i am going through with you in this last period is just ;
More than words.....