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Who i am...

Goodbye the little Kid inside Me...

My Limits of Patience

I really do not know what to do.....

I am really tired and sick of seeing,hearing,feeling,touching things regarding to her Past.

and i am getting angry...

Patience...just Patience...More Patience...

IN - OUT says a wise man

IN or (and) OUT
I really appreciate your dad. I see a very very Smart guy from what you have told me

IN
Do you really want me IN ? You say so, but your actions do not match with what you say.
OUT
Your past is past.That's why we call it past. You have to be OUT from there. If you can not , then do not try to take me IN. There is no room available for every mindset there.
IN
You want to create a Happy World around you. Have you ever thought about the fact that, when you are doing that , you are hurting me , the most powerful thing in this world that can make you happier than any other living organism ?
OUT
Contacting with "them" , leaving the door open to the others is putting me OUT of the loop. Do not tell me, you are not aware of it.
IN
I will be IN your life,as long as you mean it not just with your heart, but also with your actions.
OUT
I will be OUT of one's life that does not respect me.
IN
You are inside my mind all the time, every second, every day, every moment.
OUT
I was out of your mind, when you have done all of those actions
IN & OUT
Take a decision. If you want to keep me IN or OUT.



Just one remark ; You know how i always tell you that Life itself, is not written in the books..or in your "sources"..Life is something totally different, strange but also very beautiful. It just does not exist in the books. You expreince it, then you combine your experince with the books and then you create your own Reality.
You wanted to create your owns' w/o expreincing...
You wanted to learn everything in a moment.
But i have told you ; learning is a process. It is a process if you commit yourself and focus on it. You haven't. You have choosen to believe what was written in the books and what was right for you all the time.
There's no certain right or wrong in this world. BUT there is togetherness.When it comes to that , you think before acting how that will effect your partner.Then you understand if it is good ( not right not wrong ) for the both of you.
Meditation, inner piece, creating your own realty...They are the masterpieces of individualism. And that brings selfish actions together. Those are great tools, if you have patience. They will help you develop a lot, if you wanna learn and impelment to your life, not build up your life according to those tools. They just help you how to find the happiniess ; they do not make you Happy by themselves. And your happiniess, is INside you, not OUTside.
You have to digest everything that you are learining, then once you are ready, once you have learnt sth truly, you turn the page to learn new things.

Why do we fall, ? So that we might learn to pick ourselves up.

You just wanna start running once you are in the ground, w/o learning how to pcik up yourself in a proper way.

I've missed it......

That's the meaning of Life....

This photo is telling so many things....

Source; Special thanks to my brother for this greatest picture taken ever...

Just a few lines about "HER"

And i have just a few remarks about her, which i have to mention ;
I admire ;
How she is disciplined
How smart she is
How happy she is
How Lovable
How determined when she wants sth
How intelligent
How full of "family love"
How georgeus the way she looks
How beautiful the way she is

Are you really Alone?

She said she felt "alone" last nite....

Despite to everything i'd done...Every moment i was there...I felt really bad...

I just wanna make her...

Happy...

I am sorry....

My Gift for you today

Most of your time, you are busy with your own religion ; Wicca

And you know mine ; Shamanisim...

It is a gift to both of us that we are both Pagans...

Everyday, you are getting a little piece from me...But still, It is a question mark to you, who i am in realty

Animals are sacred creatures for Shamans. Actually they do speak to them.

And I'd explained you that Wolfs are sacred animals for Turks.

So, another piece from myself to you ;

A wolf in Shamanism represents ;

Loyalty, success, perseverance, stability and thought.Wolves are also regarded as path finders and teachers.Wolf is represented by the constellation Sirius, the Dog.In the Zuni tradition the Wolf symbolizes the direction East.

Wolf's Wisdom Includes:
Facing the end of one's cycle with dignity and courage
Death and rebirth
Spirit teaching
Guidance in dreams and meditations
Instinct linked with intelligence
Social and familial values
Outwitting enemies
Ability to pass unseen
Steadfastness
Skill in protection of self and family
Taking advantage of change

Anythin' familiar?

So actually, the beautiful roses that are waiting in front of your door right now aren't the real gift of today...These lines about me...are the real present

The Sweetest thing

My love she throws me like a rubber ball
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing
She won't catch me or break my fall
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing
Baby’s got blue skies up ahead
But in this I'm a rain cloud
You know she wants a dry kind of love
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing
I'm losing you
I'm losing you
Ain't love the sweetest thing
I wanted to run but she made me crawl
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing
Eternal fire, she turned me to straw
Oh oh, the sweetest thing
I know I got black eyes
But they burn so brightly for her
This is a blind kind of love
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=1wfv3lJs5qE

Gaia's Song

“Flames of passion and seeds of romance grow; I open my heart to love. Now the one who seeks me shall come.”