Fall.....Epidode I

Now i know...

I long for you in my arms when you are there, far from us...

I know a magic,that stars and sands and smiles and "secrets" whisper...

I know a moment that rains and dawns and moons and loves devour....

I know a calm, a chaos, a close capture that my heart dies for...

I know you, there, then in my arms in the shadow of my yearning for you...

There,then your eyes...are in my eyes...forever....

So Close to Never Hapening

Every man, woman, and child alive should see the desert one time before they die. Nothin' at all for miles around... Nothin' but sand and rocks and cactus and blue sky... Not a soul in sight....No sirens.... No car alarms...Nobody honkin' atcha. No madmen cursin' or pissin' in the streets. You find the silence out there, you find the peace. You can find God.

You made me found those on Saturday nite....When i was touching you, on that moment, on that very moment you took both of us to the desert.... I freaked out as a consequence....i just freaked out...How couldn't i? Never seen, never expreinced such a strong feeling...and all of those beauty,those feelings were shaken by my fear...Lots of emotions at one time hit me...it hit me so hard...didn't know what to do...It was a reaction of my underconcious..The war between my head and my heart had the biggest fight ever....and i fell...it hit me...
Maybe you will never understand me...nor forgive me...
but, you see; It was a self preservation thing...

If we see eachother in this life time again, and if we touch eachtoher again....You know that, this time it ain't just be the desert...it will be something bigger...
You may ask, if i am gonna freak out again ?
The answer is ; i didn't know what to do...and i fell...and why do we fall ? So that we might learn to pick ourselves up....

Do you remember, when i was telling you what is the thing that i like in you most.....but i never told u actually....That's it..That was it...This is it...
I knew it from the begining...I knew it we were going to expreince other dimensions...YOU were going to make me those things to you...i knew it, i saw it coming...That's the thing i like most in you..The Hunger of Your Beauty to Discovery...Discovering you...

Rest In Piece My Master...

Nazmi Bari...

A name that i respect...adore...

First you were my Tennis Master...

Then you tought to me not just how to be strong on the field, but also how to face the difficulties in life..

I learned to create " my own " theories about life...thanks to you

You were there, when i needed..You were there , making me run under the rain, making me shoot services for 4 hours, making me be strong and shouting to my face everytime i made a mistake...

I developed this quote and implemented to my life thanks to you...

" Why do we fall ? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up "

Let Your Soul will be in peace...I will give all of my energy to your Soul...

We will see each other again...But not yet..Not yet...

Thank you...

The moment when we lost "us "...

I hated..That day...You were away...That picture of you, tells a lot...

I hated...The moment you told me that you were not feeling me...

I hated...Being far away from your eyes...

I hated...Being far away from your presence...

I loved...The weekend...with you

I loved...Dancing with you...

I loved...Socialising with you..

I loved...Touching to you..As i never did with someone else so much...

Moreover..what made me suprised was ; i loved sleeping with you...

I think it's a Good Summary of us...

We can have the best times, in the mean while we may have the worst...

Black & White...

We are like Angels...Different ones that look like each other...i guess we both are Bad Angels...Dancing so far apart...

I would have never imagine that i was going to dedicate this song to someone ..My song...

And every single line represents a lot...regarding to us...

Dance of the Bad Angels..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QI0K0WpeNhs

What a journey
So hard to describe
Your harbour so small
The ocean so wide
Spin the wheel, spin the wheel
Go wherever she spins
Surrender to this wave that's rolling in

Homing fingers
Starting to dig
Raising expectations
Lifting the lid
There's a show going down
Going deeper within
I long to lose myself
Inside your skin

What a feeling under the stars
My body's rotating from Venus through Mars
There's a war going on
Between my head and my heart
I wonder how they grew
So far apart

I'm so shaken, about to explode
The myth of kissing princes is they turn into toads
There's a war going on
Between the sun and the moon
Before they come to terms, we'll be consumed

Oh my God
Please take me now
I'm ready for ascension
If I only knew how
Give me wings, give me wings
Now I'm stuck on the ground
Receive this blood and bones
I'm homeward bound

See the statue growing wings
This singer was a virgin
Until he conceived
God is love, God is love
And her lover I'll be
I long to leave the world in ecstasy

Dance with me around this fire
The dance of bad angels who'd love to fly higher
God is love, God is love
And her lover I'll be
I long to lead the world in ecstasy

Would you like to dance?

To her, For her, To the very girl, that makes me dance....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lZqTmgwul1g

To my young,crazy,weird,Polish Beauty ....

"When you sleep with someone your body makes a promise whether you do or not."

To be a Winner...

Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done! Now if you know what you're worth then go out and get what you're worth. But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody! Cowards do that and that ain't you! You're better than that!